One of the hardest things a person can be is being a friend. If you are pure and innocent then it is very easy to be a good friend, but unfortunately, to my knowledge, the world is filled with little of these unique individuals. As Alfred has said, Friends are those who make you happy and sad at the same time. I couldn't agree more. Sometimes if you hurt your friends feelings, sometimes you shatter his heart. The most important thing is that one must admit his errors and apologize. Friends can make you happy, bring sunshine to your day, but if you don't treasure them all, they will one day go away. Make sure everyday you give your friend a special note (Not literally, of course. It'll be a waste of paper) that he is your friend and will always be your friend forever.

The funny thing is I can't seem to talk well. I write well but i can't talk fluently. That is so sad. I can say some things from my heart, but if I do not want to talk to someone I just can't seem to hold a proper conversation. Sorry guys(and gals, not gender discrimination in my blog.), now you know.

Anyway, my mom allows friends to our house! I always say that it's my mother who is strict, but actually, I'm the one. Yes, i would love to have my friends in my house, but I do not wish for them to destroy my house in the process. So, here here. Housewarming week is next week! Anyone is welcome (as long as I know you.)

Today went to Shao Xing's birthday party (okay, not exactlya party. there were not streamers, not nothing, ecept delicious food by his mom.) I funny thing happened before I was there. I was in Jurong Point when Si Yuan called me. He told me to meet him at 1.40 (yes, we are supposed to go together. I don't know where Shao Xing lives.) and he told me that Shao Xing's mom don't want any body wearing black in colour. The prolem is: My whole body is black in colour. Track pants plus class T-shirt. Well, I managed to squirm out of trouble.

Wei Sen was there too. We played Magic the gathering for a long time till we are out. While we were eating, we suddenly talked about dicks. I were telling them how a 6' dick is actually quite normal for a matured Singaporean male, and that someone in our class (Adrian, to be exact) said that he has the longest tool in our class. Well, we leave this to the judges.

Si Yuan then told me that he was friends with me because in Sec 3 I looked isolated and alone without any friends. Worse still, i am crazy and paranoid .( I know you are agreeing with this, Alfred the bacteria.) So, he pitied me and became my friend. There was a time he could not take it any more and wanted to distance away from me but in the end he did not as he was afraid that it would break my heart. Ha! Looks who laughing now? Other than Alfred (and maybe Lim Hwee) I am the male with the most support from our class. I feel disappinted that he told me all this. I feel so rejected, like I'm a disabled person of sorts. I hate him for that (of course, I am always careful not to show my true feelings).

We played three on two: I using two decks and the three of them use theirs. Against my dark Legions and Sliver Hive they lost but they lucked it out against my Servitor Control and Mirrodin Fireball. Damn it! I can't lose to them, even though I am handicapped. It's a bit hit on my pride.

Adrian, Adrian, why do you always hurt my heart. Being the Peer Support Coordinator, yes, i swear upon myself that I cannot hate anoyone, but this is a bit too far. Why are you hurting me? Saying nasty things behind my back? I do not talk behind your back , so why you? Is it because you feel that I do something wrong to you? Do you know that when Annabelle asked me to tell Charlotte all the gossips about you to her, I did not? I held for you, but you did not oblige. You are hurting me so deeply.

Lim Hwee, Lim Hwee, why must you be so pessimistic? You said that you have family problems and I have not ground to ask about them, but I do care. Why are you so masty about people who care about you? You sayid that you are not a hypocrite and do not say things that go against your will, but sometimes your words can hurt people. You are so talented a guy yet so little is your Emotional Quotient. Nothing in the world should be taken for granted. Please, be a little out of the closet and a little closer to the sun.  
 

I took a disorder test and this is what I got:
Disorder Rating

Paranoid: High

Schizoid: Moderate

Schizotypal: Very High

Antisocial: High

Borderline: Moderate

Histrionic: High

Narcissistic: Very High

Avoidant: High

Dependent: High

Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Longest post I have ever made.

Ha ha. Cheers.