I'm getting very easily filthy nowadays. My hormones ares till taking control of me, and I am very nervous.

I am nervous because I do not know what to do for Ngee Ann.
When I say I don't know what to do I mean I don't know what to be. Being myself just doesn't cut it. I even thought of calling myself a different name, a change from Alex.

I mean, in a lifetime just how many Alexes can one know? 10 or 11 I reckon.

So I considered calling myself Luciola, from my favourite character from Last Exile. But I fear repercussions. Like people calling me Lucy or Lucifer and stuff.

These are my many names (Following chronological order)
Bart (Primary 1-2)
Charlie (Primary 3-6)
Alex (Secondary 1-4, and possibly for Poly)

Hmmm... I seem to see a pattern there. It appears the initials of my christian names is ABC. Hmm... would I consider

Dick
Dork
Dio (my second favourite character from Last Exile)
Dysteria
Donovan
Danny

Maybe not.

Currently my favourite songlists of all is
Un-break My Heart by Toni Braxton
Endless Love by Lionel Riche and Diana Ross
The Day You Went Away by M2M
Bye Bye Bye by N'Sync
It's Gonna Be Me by N'Sync

The lyrics for all this songs could be found in my Poems blog.
I like sad songs. They well make me happy. Makes me feel normal. Make me feel in control. Listening to them makes me relaxed.

When I'm relaxed, I feel normal
When I feel normal I am in control
When I'm in control I'm happy.

My mind is filled with doubts.
What kind of people will I meet in Ngee Ann?
Will I be happy there?
Will I regret about my course choice?
Will I be ostracized?
Will I neglect my studies?
Will I be broke?
Will I not be able to work?
Will I lose my life to someone special?

Well hey,
so much I need to say
ever since the day
the day I went ahead

She is so lucky, but why does she cry
If there is nothing
missing in her life
Why do tears come at night?

Why do I suddenly quote from songs to convey my feelings? I don't know but that's what is happening...

May fate guide me to his path
It is my choice as Destiny decreed
Mother Earth protect me

Bless the new pope