Had a nice talks with mom today about my future and my fears. Made me know myself even better.
Everybody has a reason to live. I have my great times, like when I got my lanyard, when I pulled people with no drive together to accomplish great things they never would do.
So why has I been getting less and less confident of myself lately?
I guess I hav too much emphasis on what others think about me. Sometimes I just wish I can be one of those people out there that can scream at someone with so much faith and dignity and belief in themselves. When I scold people I feel like I'm scolding myself too and that diminishes my already little confidence. Mom say this is part of growing up, When we were young and has no responsibility we can act whatever we please but now we are all grown up we listen to our sub-conscious and listen to other hearts so we are not as happy and fast mouthed as before. That why its better to be a kid, she said.
How I wish.
But now I must pick myself up, and stop my inconfidence from ruining me.
Love you guys.