Gls, Gls... the theme of this post is for this group of people which I hold close to my heart.

The DotA we played... I can see some of their behaviours. They may be friends, bu they do not say their hearts out to each other. This, as we all know, is not a good trait of any friendship, but it is a necessary one, unfortunately. Someone who tells you your bad points and how to change, that, is a good friend.(James, you looking at this? Hint *clement* cough..)

Looking through the blogs of some of my Glmates... Sad to say none of them added me to their links. But its ok. My fault anyways. I am, and will always, be the hidden and quiet one who will never ever talk. Why? It is my style. My habit for now. I'm only active online. I'm tired of mincing my words. Some people always tell you to talk what you want to say at their face. THAT.IS.DUMB. Why is that? Only a best friend do that.

Though I cannot assure any Gl read my posts, but I'm sure someone will try. I've read their blogs, and as they say, the clever ones write the superficial on their blogs only, the deep info all go to their diary placed in the deep bad vault where spiderwebs grow.
That'll make me a dumb person, I guess.

Some Gls are losing their cool. They oppose some things done by the SGLs. Some things the SGLs dub as 'tradition'. Perhaps some tradition goes invalid with time? Perhaps the children goes more spoilt by the day?
I believe (as I believe in many things) that children like us are not liking what they are doing is because of our innate judgement of whetever the thing is right or wrong is already made when we are 16. Some at 14. We 'mature' too fast and of course any plant doc will tell you plants that grow too fast doesn't look nice. They may know more things but inside... hoho they are still emotionally immature. That means they have the brains of a rocket scientist but the emotions of a baby. That, my friends, is a misplaced combination. This is perhaps why some sec 1s find some team building games 'crappy' and 'disgusting' and childish, often forgetting they are in fact still a child and still have multitudes ahead of them.
But it is, their body that is going through this games. And we should respect their perspective or right and wrong.
I know one person by the name of... I've forgot. Anyways, he has a very warped sense of right and wrong. And whatever he has done he adheres to his right and wrong logic very deeply, often to results that are not satisfactory to the average human population. This, of course, spells many a trouble for people like me, my friends, and his CCA mates, and we tried numerous ways to help him, but of course all in vain, because his values have been embedded too deeply.
As you can see I've forgotten his name. So I have no idea where he is now.
Till now, I strongly disagree in being sprayed by water (thanks to the uncomfortable incident when I was meditating for 24 hours in East Coast.). Now I hate being sprayed by any water except those by swimming pools. I also disagee with playing with food, and the destruction of grass for Earthworm Jim, a game which involves digging a trench is the field and pouring water to form this mud water mixture which is ultimately very fun to roll on. I also hate doing stupid things in the public which I fear I must do in 2 weeks time, in another of GLs warped, twisted and hidden 'tradition' know as -i- a-- -u-.
I believe these disagreements make me many steps behind from becoming a bona fide GL. I feel that being a GL is more than a physical matter, it is a very emotional and spiritual manner. Some GLs have stayed on for a long time, to be a SGL, then an AGL, then a lao GL. These are people who have attained nervana, a sense of belonging to the world. They have found their dream in life in GLs. They have found themselves. GLs have enlightened them and brought them to the Way.But for some, like me, we start to get away from GL, try to stay away, for we are starting to lose faith, lose confidence to getting to FOC. And why is that? There is a disagreement, a conflict of interest.
So why are we still in GLs? Why don't we quit?
Cause...
Quitting is for losers. (not my reason)
Some find it a waste. Its only 2 weeks away. Why waste all the pain we have suffered? (not my reason)
MY reason is...
I want to find the reason that makes the SGLs. To make them into the ON people they are today. Their optimistic thinking.
Does it mean that if I want to be like them, I must LIKE all the things that they do?
Now thats a papaya to chew at.