This consist of all my thoughts and feelings in the trial camp.
Unfortunately, I 've forgotten many things about the camp...
As again, fragments of my memories...

Got really mad second day where we had lunch IMMEDIATELY after the wet and dirty station games (which was fun. Seriously. Dirty=Fun!). I mean this is just wrong and smelling disgusting planta while eating just isn't right.

My team consisted of Lye Huat, Hong Kai, Kiap, Joel, Hui Nee, Shu Pei, Felicia, Jia Ling, Amanda and Pandora. Nice team, but a little not very enthu. Our team is filled with quiet people like me...
We are the pencils and WE RULE!!! We got FIRST PRIZE!!!!! Yeah.
Our cheers are a bit dirty though.

We've the poke cheer, the 5 clap PENCIL cheer, the long one 'shang hei tang' cheer and the pencils ing song cheer.

Yeah we got our coms already. And you know what? I'm in the log com. Look at me. I'm pathetic physically. How am I to do what a log person do? I know I perform one of the weakest of all GLs, so I guess they have no other place to put me. Sianz. Anyways log was my last choice.

They had this whole episode to scare us. They made us seat so uncomfortably for like 1 hour or so and do crappy things like say why we want to join GLs and make us cannot smile and cannot not smile. Then when they reveal the 2 people they want to sack like Jessica, Jia Hui and a few other girls cry. Fiona the SGL also cry. Then we have to all say we want them back (which we do. Cause they are really nice people!) Shit man then they say its all fake. Its 'all a test to see if we have unity.' All I have to say is GO AND DIE. Seriously. Don't play with a persons feelings like that. And I hate acting.

Punishment, I believe, is not the key to bonding a group of people.

We got like so on at the end of the camp (which is like the case always.)

All of us GLs stayed back after the camp and have a thrash out session discussing on our shortcomings. I think it'll not be very useful. Cuase sometimes people want to say something, but it'll hurt the another persons feelings. When a person speaks base soley on their feelings and do not consider the facts, then the thrush out session is doomed to be a failure. I was quiet on the whole session (well, until they talk about James, which I feel deserve our respect which all humans deserves.) I feel that my words have no weightage in them. So why bother?

I feel that the GLs deserve my respect. Why? They are a bunch of dedicated people who are really committed. Though there are some who are in GLs for the sole reason of being with their friends (though they say otherwise). You can just see it in their eyes.

For much of the days I was observing. The SGLs, AGLs and GLs. Listening to what they say. They reveal lots of information, some they don't want to reveal but revealed thanks to the tone. I've learnt alot. When I was in camp for RC I my fellow instructors got angry with one another too. So I know. When they are united, and when they are putting up a front. It is essential to learn things like this.

I hate giving politically correct answers. I want to give answers straight from my heart. But that, as we all know, is not the ways of 18 year old and beyond humans. We hate people who criticise us. We hate people who understand us. That is the truth.

We got a discussion with the SGLs and AGLs about James. It has become TOO obvious that the others are ostracising James. One nice AGL got us to discuss about his prospects. I hope he'll be 'given a 2nd chance' though I must say he's a perfect friend. I mean, who don't want a friend that just loves your presence? Seriously. Some GLs have too much friends.