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Thursday, May 11, 2006

Left alone

I don't know why, but I got this streak of looking at sadistic blogs until a DotA game starts and I play with the noobies and get trashed by the pros.
Anyways, there's this AJ movie called 'The letter'. It is a gay JC love story. Well, in the end, the guy committed suicide. Sad right? Apparently, this is based on a true story!

Anyways, another AJ guy told this straight guy after mustering up courage that he liked him which of course is a bad and sad mistake cause the guy started avoiding him and in the end he got delusional and commited suicide. To be exact, the AJ commited suicide on that guy's birthday. Well, the guy has this blog which is said to be written 'to make that guy remember him forever'.

Here's his sad blog: http://kevii.blogspot.com

Well, the thing I want to talk about today is not about homosexuality. What I want to talk about can a applied to a larger audience, regardless of, erm, sexual preferences. The main question today is:

"Blogs and suicide."

The thing is, blogs is where many youngsters, including me, to write down all our feelings (though the smarter ones just leave you hanging thinking 'what are they thinking?') Blogs are something like a diary which you can share your feelings to the world. So, if you write private feelings in the blog, it is signifying that consciously or subconsciously you want someone to look at your post, you want to be heard. To find that someone that understand what the heck you are thinking.
So, is the abovementioned suicidal guy knew about his feelings of suicide, or is the sad blog a silent plea for help, or love?
His entries are sad, much like mine, last time, and hinted suicide. However I will never commit suicide, unless it is to protect someone that I love. Like my family, the Pokegang and a score of other people, and ideals.
Could it be he is trying to hint to his loved ones that he is having an emotional breakdown?
Which of course comes to the question:

"Do you want your parents to read your blog?"

Well, of course not.
Not for me at the least. I just want my parents to know me as it is. If they saw my blog they'll flip. But of course thats not the point.
The point is, why don't you want your parents not to read your blog? The answer is simple, do you share secrets like 'oh I like that girl/boy from that class' to your parents?' Of course not. but you would share it with your friends. Why? The reason is due to they being closer to you as they are the same age as you, and most likely understand and empathise what you are thinking. Telling your problems to friends are more easier then to your parents. When you talk to parents, you want a solution. When you talk to friends, you want a listening ear.

Parents, are like forces of nature. They are good and positive element in your life, yet they somehow hurt you sometimes.

Cheers!


alexangelos made an imprint at 5/11/2006 11:01:00 PM

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