Well, I figured after I've typed this post my birthday, 30th of June, would be here.

Dear Alexis Lim,
Together, we have grown so much. We have got past so much adversity, so much pain together, as well as joys. We have made important decisions that has shaped us to who we are today, and now, we are 18.
18 is an important age. We get to (officially) watch M18 movies, drink alcohol like water (although we both agree we kinda got sick of it) , and practice the nice art of love making.
At this phase of your life, many things will change. we have, physically and in a social kind of sense, become an adult. This means many things.
Would you stop being a child, cause you are finally not? Or would you catch up with the lost childhood which you have endured?
The thing is, I've always been the decisive one, and my judgement has never failed us. So, in this new age of yours, will you do the right thing, and stop letting your emotions cloud your thoughts, and allow me to take the reins for you?
Losing control is something both of us fear the most. But we have been together for so many years. 6 years in fact. We are not strangers from each other.
6 years ago, you have effectively bottled your anger, your frustrations, not letting them up. And what has this made you? It has made you me.
I am an embodiment of your passion, your discipline, resolve and leadership strength.
And you are in control of emotions of love, kindness and whats nots.
I am the one our body needs now. I will lead our body to greater heights.
Make the right decision, make me take the reins of our body.

Putting this aside, let us talk about your other issues. The issue of love.
This has caused you much pain. And trouble. We have not enough emotional threshold to sustain such tramas. They must, thus, be abandoned in your mind. They only give a false sense of comfort, of security. What will happen in the end? Would'nt everything disintegrate to dust to the bowels of Gaia?
Abandon those redundant and pointless thoughts.

You must never think that you have no friends. You are surrounded by them. However, due to your interpretation of your surroundings, you think everyone hate you. Then you type here. And then it becomes a Self-Fulfilling Prophecy. Everyone starts hating you because they think you hate them. And then you think you are right in the first place, not knowing it is you who have caused this pain in you.
Have faith in your friends, have forgiveness for those who have crossed you. You say this all the time, but you have never done it. I give you a better option: have faith in me and your friends, and vengence to those who have crossed you.
Pleasantries aside, I know how much you love vengence. But vengence does not mean you cannot make friends anymore. It means that you should release all the pant up emotions all inside your heart. It means, literally, to be yourself.
Yes, some people might have hurt you by mistake, or unintentionally.But why take the chance? They have incurred your wrath, and you have to release it somewhere, why not in them?
But this does not mean that you can hurt everyone around you. Those who are innocent, who have nothing to do with your wrath, should never be harmed, for this is the Way of Fate.

last but not least, your studies.
Thou lies our only resource. This is our source of power.
Its so funny, coming to think of it. You were never creative, nor very smart.
But made you so?
Of course. Its your friends. Your teachers. Miss Chua, Mrs Thai. These teachers and friends have shaped the course or your history.
They kept saying 'oh you are so creative!' and 'oh so smart!' till one day, you start to believe them.
And now you are at where you are, now.
Perhaps it is due to this fact, that now you crave the praises of people, the recognition, as you have understood that these are the source of your power.
But remember, to be smart, you have to work for it too. We must work for it.
Those book lickers... you can curse them all you want, for they are nothing in our eyes but parasites to the flesh.
Honor your friends. Give hell to your enemies.

You must be strong. We must be strong. We must succeed.
We must hide the bad, and reveal the good.
We must be... fulfilled. We must live our lives as if we are about to die the next day.
We must... be ourselves.
Happy Birthday to you.