Tuesday, June 06, 2006

No more. No more.

Ok. Enough. I will not deal on craving for something that will never happen. Its dumb, and stupid. It will not do for someone as intelligent, far sighted, ambitious and destructive person like me. I ust pick myself up, and destroy everything in my way, including something that might destroy my already dwindling reputation in GLs.
Being cheerful and joyous like Cherubs? Oh please. How can I ever be something like that? I am sadistic, loves SM, and likes a good blood bath. Why waste my time trying to be something I'm not?
Yes, I, like other normal human beings, likes to be loved and care for, but I couldn't care less of I am not loved and cared for. And I think I'm a stupid bastard to think the things I've thought in the past few months.
Seriously, I'm speaking some annoying dumb shit last time. My superior brain cells are dying, and my academics are falling. Great.
As for that person, perhaps it will be in my mind, but I will not condone myself to do anything dumb and stupid, like confess my feelings and look as my whole Poly life is ruined in an instant. I will not, also, tolerate some short idiot with bad and smelly hair and ugly eyelashes to crap on me behind the back.
I'm waiting. Yes. They say just do it. I say just shut up and think first before you do anything.

For one thing, I would have to agree with myself. Being confused and annoyed doesn't solve matters.If it does, its for blessed people who got everything coming for them. For the other, 70% normal people like us, we have to be happy, or learn to be happy, like what I'm doing now. You think its easy to be happy, or to smile? Not.

I, for one, likes to dream. Give our tired minds a rest.Lets us think properly too.

Formalities. We must observe formalities and rules. That is the law. law must be abided.

Dumb bastard. I hate saying shit like that to you cause it meant assing myself, but I'll do it anyways. Vulgarities doesn't make you a bad person: its what you meant that does. Ask those Beng kid s on the streets on the meaning of the vulgarities and they know fuck (as in, they know not the meaning.) They are, therfore, still innocent kids that have to fulfill a self-fulfilling role in their pathetic, miserable kong kam lives. I want you to get out the cycle. be more vocal, be more yourself.

You mean, be more you?

Fuck off.

I am a faithful abider of rules and laws and respect and...

Screw respect. I know you want it. You want to say screw. Come on... repeat after me. Screw, screw, screw...

Shut it. I know what you mean, stop being someone that I'm not. I'm not kind and caring, I don't pick up old people and children who slips, I don't donate to charities, and I will not certainly be kind to useless people.

There, you've got the gist.

And you think this will make me a better person?

Better person? Hell no. Make you live your life more comfortably, yes.

Well, i guess we'll see how it goes... shall we, Tim?

I couldn't wait.

alexangelos made an imprint at 6/06/2006 12:55:00 AM