The new hair colour of mine is starting to show. For one thing, only Xiao Yu know that I'm having yellow hair. The rest think I'm having brown/red/brownish-red/reddish brown hair. I feel so... dissappointed.
Nora thought there's a new student today. Until she saw the face.

Almost went insane today. (When Alex goes insane, he means it quite literally) The aura in the school library is very thick, I don't know why. if a place is haunted then the school library has got to be it. The air is so stuffy too. Each time I come out of the library it feels like I've been released from prison.

My ulcer is not getting any better. Sadly. Must cut down on 'heaty' foods.

After much gambling in Diablo II I have finally aquired the Mojo's amulet!!! It grants me 2 plus to all my summoning skills!!! Wo ho!!! I love items that give plus points to skills...

Yes I've been guilty of not doing work again. So sue me.

I got top in my class for Nursery Management test!!! (Yes, it is finally out. Amen.) Thank Fate for all Her blessings.

My sanity is getting harder to control. Maybe its the lack of sleep. Maybe I'm not eating well. Maybe its both.Thank goodness I'm not having any relationship troubles like many people I've seen this few weeks. And no enemies to work about too. Bless Fate. But I think I've already have many projects up my throat to constitute a threat to my lifestyle, so maybe thatsthe 'negative factor' They say that when you are busy, you have no time to waste on pointless squabbles and relationships. The problem is I waste my time...

What do I do when I go crazy? Well, I start to scream in my head, my headache becomes migrane, things go blur, I go berserk and start to hit inanimate objects... When I'm about to go berserk... well... it mostly happens when I'm concentrating on something for too long, like when I'm playing a game, reading a very good book, looking at a engaging movie... then when a little spark just light me up and just go bonkers. Not that I want to, and sometimes I just don't know where have my self-control went to sometimes when that happens. Very unpleasant.
So I ry to keep myself chained up (sometimes literally, as my friends can see...), keep myself away from others... but I guess the only why to cure this is to interact with people more and be more enlightened. Maybe then I'll find a suitable way to seal the berserk part of me away.

Its hard being you when you are divided into 3 parts: The insecure, caring, relationship part, the disciplined, task-orientated, blunt part, and the downright nasty, evil part. I realise that I encompass all of them, and no matter what I do, I embody them all the way. So I must balance them all. That, is a task that can last me a lifetime. But all for the sake of sane mind, its worth it.