Humans love sex. Its natural.
And Sex is painful. Its natural.
So does humans live pain?
The answer is yes.
However, what differentiate good pain from bad pain?

Good pain is when it is more pleasurable than it is hurting. (Like sex.)
Bad pain is when it hurt more than it is pleasurable. (like a project which got a B when you spend loads of time in it.)

When it comes to the issue of pleasure, it is all a matter of perception.
We are living in a world of pain. You can choose to seek the pleasures of the pain, or remain to feel hurt and miserable about the pain. Since you get tortured, why not make out the best of it? You HAVE to be tortured anyways.

Find pleasure in what you do.

Pleasure nulls pain.

I love words. Since young I've been playing with them in proposals, reports, skits, speeches and many other documents. They are very fascinating to me: The fact that I do not need to see you, but I can send my message across, perhaps even more clearer the if I speak to you, is a marvelous feeling to me. I love to express myself with words, I am at my best when I'm not being with someone. You'll find Alex in msn, chatrooms and email, but you will never find Alex when you see him face to face.

Thats how I feel right now.

I am, in the process of discovering myself. I find that 'hey, I may not be as funny and sociable that I think I am.' But I want to be. Be funny and sociable.
I'm not proving to anybody. I'm proving to myself. My biggest critic? Myself. My biggest lover? Myself.

Now lets get the camera off me and to another issue.

Will you forgive someone if someone said something to you that is not nice, and the other person apologised later?
I will, if you ask me. Maybe its not that day, but I will forgive. Words relay our messages, but they are not perfect. We are not telepathic, I do not know your threshold for criticism. Some people are sensitive to certain words, phrases, and topics, but the outsiders can't read your mind: you cannot think that we already knew the taboo things to do. This is unfair to the others and unfair to yourself, having lose a good friend due to such petty matters. If the other person apologised, it signifys that he has repented, or he intends to patch up this friendship with you. Take it. A friend is better than an enemy.

Judgement can only be set upon those who know about the crimes that they commit.

And with that, I close a chapter of my life, and start a new one.

The chapter is called 'Reshaping Alex: the Youth Years part 1: A New Hope)

Cheers.