I'm going to KL today!!! So excited that I've not packed my bag yet. =p

Oh yeah forget to report on the Red Cross trip that we had on Friday. Met up with old friends and they still never change much during the whole 3 years! We went to TCC to eat (which is damn ex) and then went to settlers, where we had fun playing Ugly dolls, Sandwich, Taboo and Jurassic Rumble. It was loud and exciting. I think I'm gonna go there again and play munchkins (a RPG card board game) which I think is gonna be my type of game.

I love board games, especially strategic board games like Spy Game (or something like that. Played it after the KL briefing with Si Min, Seph, Anne, Jia Hui (Winner) and Bryan. Very exciting), Settlers of Katan, Monopoly and I'm the Boss! They are much more exciting compared to video games, cause its pretty much free and its very mentally stimulating and increases bonding with your friends.

Bought a Rock Lee plushie (which me and my bro adores) for my bro for his birthday (21st) and he bought me a neck messager for my birthday (30th). We really love Rock lee cause he's really motivated and not to mention really really funny. Will upload pictures when I don't feel weak.

If you managed to read the above paragraphs, you must be real good, cause even I think its kinda incoherent. Its random thoughts anyways.

I kinda realised how weak physically I am. I can't even carry a few chess boards and 6 bowls of seeds by myself. Heiz. I feel I'm gonna suffer in the army. I wouldn't die, cause the Lin Family doesn't die that easily. We'll at least wreck some havoc first before we allow ourselves to die. We live for the world, and we shall not die until we have done our part.

I can be very motivational. But it is of course Fate's Will. I'm not in that motivation mode all the time, just some of the oppotune time that Fate allow me to. My friends can be of judge to that. I can't hold a conversation with Anne in 154 or 30 mins, and almost treat her as non existant throughtout the bus ride, only to start speaking when we get off the bus. Another side of me would try to motivate the dead (a.k.a stubborn people who think they have no life, and that they are worthless useless people.) until my saliva reserves dry out. So I guess I cater for the people? Things like this is hard to fathom.

I was never really clever in the first place. Just a skin which I like to wear around me all the time. After awhile it kind of feels good. I intend to graft it on me.

I am still comtemplating whether I should be serious about the WeiQi course. I have a bad vibe about this.

I'm going to 19 years old in 10 days time. I'm very, very afraid. The headaches have come and it is now gone. The signs are there, and I'm suffering mentally. But soon, it shall be over. Its always this way every year. Kinda like rewiring of my brain (perhaps this is the reason for my insanity.) I have always waited for this day. But the results can be unsatisfying. A better word might be not-as-fruitful-as-I-hoped-it-is. Anyways, during this time of the year, I close all vendettas and refresh my love for everyone once more. Then start the cycle again.
But this year, things might be different. I'm going to be 19. 18 was the initiation age, than 19 would be the official age (for porn and RA film lovers, 21 would be your official age). When I come to 19, I can no longer joke like I use to, I can no longer behave wildly like I used to, and I can no longer presume freedom of speech as a librety as something to be taken for granted. Though for me, the Age of Occupation would be 21, where I will build my own career, 19 will be the Age of Preparation, where I start to have the tools necessary for 21. I must prepare myself for the challenges that Fate is planning for me. There are millions of people out there to help. The better well off I am, the more I can help lead them to the Fate's Path, where they can find their place in the Web.

Well, what wonders will happen at Malaysia? I wonder.