Hmm I'm sure I've a post with the same title, but I guess for someone like me, this title can be really useful often.

I am not in IVP. Yay. My last chance to get the windbreaker. But hey, now, I've no need to come all the way from Botanic Gardens to the useless waste of time training which I've come everytime I can. I've more time for myself, no need to tire myself out, and no need to go for any stupid 3 day 2 night camp that'll screw up my sleeping time. Yeah, I can handle that.

Loyalty just won't cut it.

But again I pray to Fate, cause it must be for a higher purpose that I should not join the IVP. Perhaps if I join, I won't make a difference. Perhaps the guy who doesn't come everytime and perhaps seems to have more potential then me, will make more of a difference than me. Perhaps they'll get something more than the 3rd place which I'm sure they've grown accustomed with.

Yes, my dear friends. I am very, very unpleased about it.

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Coming to a better note, (though it is not actually anything good or anything)

I was buying KFC, and this cashier thinks she so clever and when I ask for 6 tomato sauce, she gave me the tomato sauce, and count every tomato sauce she gave me out loud to me like I can't freaking count. I look at her with my eagle sarcastic eyes with malice dripping out of my cornea and said 'Oh sooooooo funny' and that shut her up real good and become like the mild lamb that she should be when she's a cashier. Fucker.

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Tomorrow we're doing landscaping for the 2nd Linnaeus film screening. There'll be Xiao Yu AND me there. How is the landscape going to be like? I pray hard to Fate. If we are going to keep contradicting each others designs and ideas, it'll be a painful and sad day for all. I don't want to look incompetent for something as stupid as this.

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During the Paragon session, in the midst of the work and busy-busy, I've thought up of the lyrics of a song. Here it is.

(Caution: This song is in not, in any way, representative of its composer, Alex Lim.

Boyfriend
by Alex Lim

(Chorus)
I need a boyfriend
Not just any man
A man who loves me
A man who cares about me

I need a boyfriend
Not just any guy friend
A man who loves
A man who cares
Whos faithful to me

Stop stop stop on your tracks
You're no that want forever
Wait wait wait for his call
I'm waiting for love tonight

Chorus

Pop pop pop in the pub
I'm drinking away but he's still not here
Dance dance dance on the floor
I need a man and he's just not here

Chorus

(Bridge)
A man who loves a man who cares
A man who cares a man who loves
A man who loves a man who cares
A man who's faithful, faithful to me

Chorus

Well, thats kind of all. And its real sad, really sad, when people don't listen for a second. Just open their ears and listen. Or maybe just open up their eyes.

Take a look at this example

*****: (to me) "Next time if you want to find me you'll have to call me first cause I'm very busy. Unless if you are staff, or on attachment here."

Purrrrrrlese.... I'm wearing the working Polo T-shirt with STAFF printed on my left pocket... so fucking blind.
Hearing aid, anyone?

And my English has become so bad. Why? Because my environment is full of people who speaks bad English. I just don't know how Dr Koh does it.

Fate bless.