I've drank tea at Red White and Pure yesterday... again the tea was invigorating... I needed that to think my future through.

To think my 3 years of poly life is over in a flash. So much has happened (btw the presentation was not that bad but not excellent either for me... the external examiner Mr drinnan asked a very... thoughtful question which confunded me) in these years. I've been to places, many were my first time... experiences I'll ever forget...

And so now I come to the question of what I want to become. I know what I like to do: to present to the world the beauty of nature. I want to be a landscape designer. But the road to becoming one is expensive. Mr Fletcher from Uni of NSW said so. 4 years plus 2 years to be a qualified landscape architect. I cannot afford such cash. Perhaps this means I must be on my way to a scholarship. Only that will allow me to fulfill my dreams.

I have the fear of being alone overseas as well. I think Xiao Yu is brave as she came all the way from China to Singapore to study for 3 years on her own... its really strong willed of her. I hope Fate will grant me the strength and the oppotunity to serve Gaia and her designs. Perhaps I will still be worthy to be part of the design of the Grand Web of Life.

Granted, I should not be wacky and intangible any more. Not good for business. Must be professional. Yes. The goody Alex must return.