Its amazing how perspective of something can be so different amongst so many people. This is how wars start: People pursue their own 'right' and cause suffering and pain to others.
To that, some people out that impose their perspective onto others, who may not know what is going on.

So some where along the line I found myself, the one and only, wants to help. As this is not good business for us all.

But the problem is, I soon realise I'm saying something that is (to me) the right answer to one side, but to the other side, its not good. In fact, its pretty negative. So is this hypocrisy? I don't think so. I merely give the right answers. From the facts which I know. The truth hurts baby, as they always say.

I'm wasting my time and effort here. I guess I must take the hint. The hint is: get the fuck off! Negative bomb alert! Useless alert! Pointless alert! You are not training to be a councilor! You are training to be a landscape architect! No point in disobeying the decision you made 1 year ago. If he is like this 1 year ago, he'll be like this anytime soon. Though, for the sake of the freshies, I hope he'll not be Chen Le number 2. That'll be sad. For the club.

But then, there is another seed! As one rots another grows! Should I cultivate it? The seed with the most viability and energy! I guess the camp will help me as well, help me recognise the traits of such good seeds. I must learn to handle the bad seeds, as well as throwing them away. Perhaps my success will not be from them, but from some other shit and urine eater that happens to scavenge it from the heaps of despair. Well I tried to but now knee deep in shit I don't think its worth it anymore. So I'll abandon this project. The rewards is just not coming in.

I'm really screwed now. The camp is on the 31st of June. I have the Grand Copthorne Dinner at the same time. And it ends at 11.00 pm. Thats like so fucking sian la. Seriously. Am I to take a taxi to school immediately to reach? I don't even know if there's a bus or not. Damn saded. But still, I've a spirit contract with Mervyn and cannot back down now. And I can't back down to expensive food as well. Even if I take taxi its still below the food costs lor. But still, I won't sacrifice my money for a camp I've no monetary benefit for. I will definitely take a bus back. Definitely.

Next week shall test me. May Fate and Gaia watch over me.