Technically I'm writing this on 11th September, but whatever.
One year soldier already! The next year today I'll will be a civilian again! this of course meant that I should start worrying about my career, and start acting instead of reacting. Being proactive after so long of passiveness can be hard, but I'll manage.
I received a message from Benedict informing me that there's family day on the 24th Oct, it's compulsory and of my family is coming. That's when I realised time passes so fast. It wasn't long since I came in late last year, a fresh POPed private from Tekong. No, well, I'm a pretty old bird who is, sadly, still a private with no beret.
Now time seemed to have passed so fast. Maybe too fast. I don't know if I'm ready for the real world. But I'll manage.
Ever get that feeling of guilt and probably regret when you've seen someone done something bad to? I get that feeling alot, which probably isn't a good sign. And I get them in the weirdest of places, like in camp, in toilets or classes... I sure made lot of mistakes! And the thing is, I can't seem to forget them or forgive them. I guess all I need is some kind of closure.
I met with Kevin HLM the other day and he's doing well and he said something that struck me. It was a pretty innocent comment and its something I've noticed for a long time. he said I 'pian shou le' (became skinny) Though in most cases I do take that as a compliment but in tis case I realised he's right: I have become... anorexic. Taking a years worth of army's food has taken its toll on me. Or maybe its the mosquitoes. Or the beds. Or filth. Or an unhealthy combination of all of them. It has also made me realised I used to be fat during HLM times. My Bum Equipment jeans used be a tight fit but now its loose fit (giving me a bohemian look)
Change... the nasty friend.